Friday, December 24, 2010
Yeah. They loved me.
I cleaned it all up, but there is no wine or squares to be saved...only a few slightly wine filled Ferrero Rocher. Sad. I hope the gym gods appreciate their offering and grant me health and full christmas turkey and pudding recovery.
I think I'll just suck the wine out of the candies and call it a day :)
I'm not sure when I'll be in next, so I must wish you all a most Merry Christmas my frends :)
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Yesterday was solstice.
The days will get longer now. More light. More warmth. The boldest and darkest things have come and will now be taken back and replaced with new brighter things.
After spending the evening with fine people snacking, laughing and reflecting I feel refreshed. It always seems like more of a new year to me than January 1. The time when I really can stop and ponder the past year and think about the one to come. Reflect. Wish. Scheme >:)
I find, upon reflection, that I need to take the time to be grateful for so many things:
I am really lucky to have the friends I do. Old and new. You all show me how to be a better person. You care without pause and push me to be better. Teach me when I am wrong. Love me for who I am. Make me laugh. Comfort me when I cry. It is freeing. Thank you.
I am closer with my family than I have ever been after the year that has passed by. Altho I still miss my Mum every day I can find the joy in memories. And the more I do, I remember that you must give love every day in little things. Take the time to appreciate those I care for. To let them know and not save up goodness for some grand future plan - to just share what is with a smile.
My husband and I are close...after so much we are companions of the soul and two geeky peas in an escape pod. He is still the one I see when I wake and smile and know each day that again, today will be a new day. And we will spend it together...and who knows what may come of it!
I am lucky to be healthy. At this moment, I am healthier than I have ever been. I can move and breathe and do everything I want to. And best of all, I have begun to feel comfortable in my own skin. I am slowly settling into whatever I am and will be. The process fascinates me.
I must be conscious that I am still learning. There is so much out there and endless opportunity to take it all in. From the crude and mundane to the new and scientific. So much to know and forget and relearn :)
There is so much to try and experience: I have come to love so many new things this year by being open-minded and curious. I like persimmons...cottage cheese...apple tea...espresso vodka...exercising at stupid o'clock.
Being so busy this past year has shown me just how important the things are to me that I hold dear. These are some of those things.
The moon is full.
As is my heart. :)
Monday, December 20, 2010
This Mexican version of Walking in a Winter Wonderland popped in my head last night after watching one of the weirdest (and arguably worst) Christmas films. A friend of ours has a penchant for B movies and invited us all over for a Christmas film. Usually it's a horror movie, so we showed up with munchies and eggnog and wow...were we surprised. It wasn't a horror...but yet it was...
(sorry - it was all I could find on this film on the web)
He found "Santa Claus" - a 1959 english dubbed Mexican Christmas film about a demon trying to stop Santa on Christmas eve. From this film, I've learned a few new facts about Christmas:
1. if you are bad Santa will shoot you in the butt with a canon
2. Santa lives in a castle out in space, made of crystal and candy
3.Good children who don't steal have nightmares about creepy dancing dolls
4. It's OK to pray to Santa for a present if you ask for two of them so you can give one to the baby Jesus.
5. Merlin the magician wears curly shoes and talks like Dr. Evil doing the macarena (katuk katuk katuk...). He lives in Santa's castle...just cuz...Utterly bizarre.
Good thing we had lots of rum...
Thursday, December 16, 2010
It's been so long since we've been able to meet that she still had my birthday present. Ridiculous I know. It was good to see them before Christmas. Hopefully I will again much sooner...We are scheming to go to ComicCon this summer...girls only. It should be a blast.
I am now the proud owner of lightsaber lip balm. Yes it lights up green. No you can't have it.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Friends of ours just lost their furfriend. I am sad with them -she was a sweet one. Some people have "pets". For me, and others like them their pets are family. It makes me want to go home and give the cats some sort of eternal youth elixir...I know I've had Geek about longer than I have had J about. And I'm so grateful for all that time...
That's a lot of head butts and skritches. :)
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Take me where I cannot stand
I don't care, I'm still free
You can't take the sky from me
Take me out to the black
Tell them I ain't comin' back
Burn the land and boil the sea
You can't take the sky from me
There's no place I can't be
Since I found serenity
You can't take the sky from me...
Monday, December 13, 2010
I can hardly believe I can say it but
As my Dad would say - Hot damn and hallelujah!
I'm going out for supper with J and my Dad tonight to celebrate and visit and unwind. I will drink wine. I will smile. I will relax with my family and eat large amounts of chinese food....bliss.
Dad is here untill wednesday and it'll be so nice to just visit and not have a zillion things running around in the back of my head that need attention.
I'm so very very happy this semester is all over...
Sunday, December 12, 2010
I'm wigging out...having the worst time concentrating. So much to know. So incredibly BORING.
It is the last thing before I am done this semester. Everything else has gone alarmingly well...
Soon I can then visit with my family and my Dad.
Put up lights.
Just have to get thru this damn test first.
statistical analysis is NOT an easy study topic.
And I want to kick it's sorry ass back to Idaho.
Well back to it I suppose...
Friday, December 10, 2010
I'm wearing my new dress pants. They're stretch corduroy. *wicked* - like pajama pants, but posh looking. It's like giving a speech in fancy pajamas :)
Here we go!
Thursday, December 09, 2010
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
I'm hanging in there. I may actually finish my final paper tonight...then comes the studying.
Have a great day K? :)
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Now? Nothing. Because I'm achieving my goals. My legs are strong. The muscles supporting my knee are strong. I used to only be able to do one set of leg raises of 10 lbs before my knee would complain and ache. As of yesterday I can do 3 sets of 40. Yes...hard work and attention to form has given me back the active, strong legs I have been wanting and I couldn't be more happy about it. I can do everything I need to do.
Being the hermit I have been with school lately I've sort of not noticed the changes in my health and overall body shape over the past few months. Nose to the grindstone. Really it's only my annoying lack of fitting clothes that's given me any signals that I'm really changing my body. The last week or so, going to Christmas gatherings a few people have come up and asked me what I'm doing to make such a good change. It's a bit embarrassing for me as I still don't know how to take a compliment, but it really pleases me that it's noticeable. It's the same reason why if I think I should pay a stranger a compliment I do...I know how it feels :)
I'm really struggling with finishing up my last assignment (it's one of those make work sort of things) and studying for my exam. It's been over 10 years since I've written a final exam...and I don't quite "get" all the material I need to to completely understand it all (it *is* biostatistical analysis methods...not exactly a cake walk, but still...I've got a nerdy brain. This stuff usually comes easily to me). If I can finish up my final assignment tonight I'll have 5 days left to study. I'm hoping it will be enough to mush things around in my head and come up with a decent understanding of what i need to know. Maybe I'm being a bit hard on myself, but I really want to know that when I walk into that test, whatever mark I get is the best I could get. If I blow it, so be it. At least I will have tried my best. Then there is no regrets and I can go on with life. It's been one long frigging difficult semester and I'll be damned if I give up with 1 week left :).
Well, I must be off. Lots of lab stuff to do...later taters!
Workout tunes: Fatboy Slim - Greatest Hits: Why try harder
Monday, December 06, 2010
Friday, December 03, 2010
Since discovering a zillion kinds of healthy foods I love I've been quite happy snarfing them all the time. I thought that was the whole point of eating - eat what you like. I could never be healthy if I had to eat bland crappy food that I dislike. I suppose I'm lucky that way that I've found healty food that I love.
I have variations on salads with grilled chicken or tuna and nuts for lunch almost every day and at least once a day someone asks me why I'm not bored of them by now.
I have no idea. But I'm not. I still actually salivate when I'm setting it all out on my plate for lunch. Since school has started I've had them most days as I can pack up a whole week of lunches on sunday for myself and I'm good to go.
That's why I think it is odd that I've been asked if it's difficult to chop the vegetables.
Um. No? To me salads are a lazy lunch. Hardly any work at all...I make a point of not talking about it because I don't want to one of the people I find annoying that like to talk about how good her healthy food is.... I just eat it with a big grin on my face. :)
Do you find that there are things you could eat all the time and not get tired of?
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
And I've calmed down considerably now. But, really...what else can I do?
Have a good day everyone. I will be keeping the caffeine levels spiked in my blood so I survive today...
Monday, November 29, 2010
I am shaking.
I just spent weeks data crunching, working, writing and rewriting a paper and making a presentation for my 6 month meeting around my regular project, regular job and 2 classes with lots of homework. I have had no life for weeks.
I wore a fucking skirt people.
I even came early, helped rebook the talk to a room with a phone jack so that my one supervisor could teleconference in, came early and set it all up....and then sat...and waited for some people to show up...and they never did. They were in another very important meeting that went long...so MINE is going to be rescheduled. After it took me harrassing them to get it scheduled after the first scheduling of it failed back in early November.
But, oh don't worry. It'll happen. You know, sometime soon...
So basically I could have spent all that time on other assignments and NOT slowly going batshit crazy over the last few weeks trying to get everything done (and doing so I might add). I could have spent tim ewith my husband. I could have...oh...I don't know, worked on the freaking huge assignment I have due tomorrow all weekend instead of on my presentation. Knowing I'll be up all night finishing something for no damn reason is just....
There are no words.
I need to calm down so I can get work done.
For a change...
I'll be so glad when it's done. I hope hope hope it goes well. My report for it is complete and my talk should be just fine. I'm rather burnt out so I admit I'm just pleased it's coherent :) I have lots to show for my time, but not a lot of analysis yet, and I suspect I'll say the phrase "I'm analyzing that right now, I should know soon" about 6 zillion times as we discuss my speech, but at this point, I'm looking forward to it being done.
You know - so they can give me more to do :)
Wish me luck...I wore my new pirate boots, so it has to go well, right?
Sunday, November 28, 2010
It calls to me. I pull out a spoon and have a bit.
The afternoon of what should be determined work on my MSc presentation and some other homework at the table has gone thusly:
*eat the pudding Geo*
pause. Determined head shake.
*delicous pudding....just over there!!*
"Nom. OK. No more. I must work on my speech and biostats assignment!"
Determined effort for 10 minutes
hesitant glance over at fridge
"why just a little bit more wouldn't hurt..."
"now. back to work!"
Determined effort for 10 minutes...
Lather. Rinse. Repeat.
All delicious afternoon...
I think the entire ~2 L of pudding will be gone by tomorrow. I honestly have no concrete plans for anything else to eat except for pudding today.
I can't get scurvy from one solid day of eating pudding can I?
Friday, November 26, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Believe me when I say that I am beside myself with glee about this.
The only problem is trying to focus :)
I've been so *busy* for so long, it's like knowing it will end soon is some sort of ticket that allows me to slack off. I don't want to burn out, but I've still got 4 things due so I need to keep at it so I'm not panicking at the last minute and turning in macaroni pictures!
I bought some organic yogurt and some fresh blueberries last night. Pricey but delicious for breakfast this morning. Something about swimming makes me crave yogurt afterwards. Seeing as this is the last swim of the season before they shut down the pool until January I thought I'd have one final uberposh yogurt fruity deluxe of a breakfast.
Have a listen to the song that's been round and round in my head since I got up and have a great day OK? :)
Hope yours goes well. :)
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Rosemary Clooney has an incredible voice. She's like Judy Garland and Billy Holiday to me - one of those perfect sexy voices from the past that I could never tire of listening to...from long ago when women sang from their soul. She sang incredible full songs. Sultry. Some of my favourite ones were Sway and especially Love You Didn't Do Right By Me in the film White Christmas (which some day I would LOVE to sing).
Today I learned it's her voice that sings Come On a My House, of which there is a remix of on the funky Ursadelica Album by Nasty Tales and their Orchestra that has been in my head all morning. Ursula 1000 remixes and spins funky stuff...
Strange how music bumps around and overlaps like that :)
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Thank goodness. I hate relying on other people for things...because I find in my experience, they do not usually have the same vested interest in it as I do...this only reinforces what I try and get away from. I am trying to remind myself that despite these things it is good to rely on other people sometimes. If they have expertise to offer, why reinvent the wheel? Let them help...
It's the home stretch of evil. SO much to do in 3 small days.
Here we go!
Monday, November 15, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Friday, November 12, 2010
Wankers. All of them...
But. On the very very plus side, my friends Nick and Laurel just had a beautiful baby girl...all sweet and scrunchy and tomatoey faced... and two more wonderfully kind and peaceful people there are not in this world, so I know this baby has a great place to grow.
And I am glad to know that wonderful joyous things still abound...I was starting to wonder.
Monday, November 08, 2010
Help me great pulsating brain at the center of the universe...for I am doomed.
But at any rate...like i said. Crazy town time.
LATER: after initial tests the robit does everything it should admirably. Not as super swift as my Mac...but that'll do pig, that'll do.
Plus it has a webcam.
Saturday, November 06, 2010
It has made having him about a bit more interesting -it is hard to call or admonish a deaf cat. Often "the voice" was all it took for him to know he was behaving badly. I am finding I accidentally startle him a bit more than I'd like to, and am trying to remember to tap on the floor before I just walk up and pet him from behind. Other than his desire to destroy the back of the downstairs couch I really have nothing to complain about to him. All in all he is a wonderful old man. Geek is a people cat, liking to watch what we do, and still plays like a monkey. He has become something of a snugglecat as he got older and I am home less often, which I love.
He is currently a big purring blob on my lap, keeping me company after a long day in the lab and a few hours out in the yard raking leaves. After a nice hot shower and a crisp gala apple I do believe the Geek and I are going to read a book for a while.
One with nothing to do about labwork.
Thursday, November 04, 2010
When I was 4 I watched the fog.
As a teenager I had the same repeated nightmare involving a horde of zombies...which I can still vividly picture now. Let's just say I have experienced being chased and attacked with/by loved ones/zombies and been eaten alive and leave it at that. *shudder*
Zombies are, to me, the ultimate unstoppable horror. You can't reason with them. They have no keen intelligence-just instinct...and hunger. They slowly move towards sounds and if you are there, they will kill you, tear you apart painfully and then perhaps eat you. And after, you or ones you love will become one of them...
I've tried for years to get over this irrationality. Most movie zombies aren't that scary, as they aren't real. Too fast. Too slow. Very fake. Occasionally comics or movies get them right...and I'm terrified. The suspense of an empty world full of walking dead is just shivery. The waiting and watching...the fear. It would drive me mad I think.
And yet, the comic series Walking Dead fascinated me. Sure it's quite scary and not at all happy, but it focuses not on the gruesomeness of death so much as how the people who survive meet, work together and try and deal with things. How real people make it through in a new world.
I've enjoyed reading it for this reason. Maybe it's cathartic seeing the main character, a sheriff who wakes up in a hospital after recovering from a gunshot wound to find the world forever different. He searches for any family left (his emotionally distant wife and young son) and tries to accept how things are now. He tries to find sanity and friendship and reasons for living. Along the way he meets many people, not all good, but all of them dealing with things in their own way. And yes...also a lot of the "walkers"...reanimated people...worthy of pity and fear for what they can do to you and those you care for.
AMC (who did a great job of recreating the Prisoner a while back) have made a mini-series based on this long running comic, and the first installment aired over the weekend. I finally had time to sit down, hunkered tensely under a blanket next to J, and watch it. Yes, it gave me the gibbeleys, but I will watch the rest of it if I can catch it. It's quite faithful to the comics (so far) and is doing very well at focusing on what I find interesting...how real people deal with such a thing.
And yes...I'll likely hear things and be jumpy for weeks. I'm hoping that by putting on my big girl sparkle panties and watching this I'll help deal with this silly fear I have. We shall see.
If you get the chance, check either of them out. A bit dark, but they definitely will make you think.
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
Yes it's true. For only 3 low payment of $99 you can...ahem.
Sorry. Started to feel like an infomercial there.
Thing is, I just learned this morning that I can apply to have the eyeglass restriction taken off my driving license because my eyes (which have never really ever been all that bad) are now officially within the 20/20 range. They have been slowly getting better for years.
Sure I still will get a new pair because I'm used to the world being in perfect squeaky A1 focus all the time, but I've thought for over a year now that I honestly could drive without my glasses just fine. It's nice to know I wasn't just deluding myself.
AND it would mean I can wear normal sunglasses while driving...which is cool, because I've never had any other than those lame clip on ones that sort of reflect an image of you eyes back on the lens and the pair I was planning to turn into sunglasses are the ones that broke.
If only I could get lasers installed too.
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
Monday, November 01, 2010
"Screw motivation. If we are physically capable of working out we are lucky. No matter how much we wanna whine or lament or moan about how bad we have it the simple fact we are ABLE to exercise makes us one of the lucky ones. "
This morning I was exhausted and stressed out and worried about all I have to do today before I can sleep, and you know what? I got in to the gym and within minutes the flowing movement got me soaring...focused...thinking...feeling *GOOD* about being alive and all that I can do with my body and mind. For a few minutes I could get lost in what it feels like to move and enjoy moving...no stress...no worries. Just me.
I may be a year older but I honestly feel younger than I have in years. :)
Friday, October 29, 2010
This morning my favourite old glasses fell to the floor and in a freak event, snapped right in half across the nose.
I am not enjoying this.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Truth is, I just have to keep going. Things will get done, bit by bit.
All I know is, when this is over I a throwing a very large party. You are all invited.
There will be cupcakes and beer.
And me with the biggest grin you've ever seen.
For now...it's back to the data mines for me...
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Go figure -in the end of october in Saskatchewan?
You knew this was coming...chill.
You've seen ice before. Grab a toque and mitts and suck it up.
Slow down when you drive and just take a deep breath.
After all, only 5 more months of this frozen crap...better get used to it.
I'm jsut concentrating on not falling on my butt when I walk on the skating rink sidewalks.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Wanna know why?
Well this weekend, not only did I find some nice fuzzy-lined warm winter boots that are actually adult looking and don't look like eskimo boots or hikers...I also found BOOTS! Swashbuckling worthy boots!
This is huge.
I kid you not when I say that I have the calves of a pirate. I wistfully look at boots and whenever I see ones I like and actually risk trying them on they will only zip up about 3/4 of the way. My calves are not dainty...they're strong and manly. Good for escaping zombies, but VERY annoying for buying boots. I've had $$ aside for years to find boots that fit. I've even bought an amazing pair of Fluevog Operetta boots that I'm saving up for to be altered by a shoeman because they were amazing enough that I was willing to save up to pay someone to fix them so they fit.
And this weekend whole questing for winter boots I found some incredible brown leather swashbuckling boots from Clark's and I figured I'd try them on, as they had a bit of a give in the back...and THEY FIT! They look AMAZING! I wanted to go out in the mall and yell "I'VE GOT BOOTS PEOPLE! F*CKING AYE!"
Yes...All girlish glee aside, I love them. They are really nice. I can wear boots now and not feel left out when I feel all Zoe Washburn and want to go space pirating...
And...after being home and feeling trim and slim from my few months of diet and exercise (I'm down 10lbs since the summer) I had a thought and tried on my Fluevogs, jut on a whim. And yes...my Operettas zip up now.
They are snug, but they do up. YEAH!
I guess there's something to this fitness and exercise thing after all...:)
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
Because I had to wait for the stove dude I got to sleep in this morning until 8. Heavenly. But now...back to work. A little gym workout and then a lot of labwork. It's my friday off so I can saunter in when I please and get done what I need to today for my MSc before I head home.
Have a great day:)
Thursday, October 21, 2010
It's a bit of a less crazy week this week. I spent a few hours each night of monday night and tuesday night with J. Wednesday at my brothers. Tonight I'm working late, but so is J and tomorrow? Well we might actually go out!
Will wonders never cease.
It's good to take the pressure off your brain a bit.
I got a lot done for my meeting in Toronto and now know I have all November to put together my committee meeting report, data, do lab work, do homework and study in long days again. I feel positively peaceful having a few shorter days this week.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
I do believe that for my birthday I will treat myself to this print to frame up for my mad scientist closet:
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Sometimes the doctors I work with frustrate me. They are busy. They are over-intelligent and tend to order underlings around. They expect from us what they give to us and others and will not put up with bullshit and can be very curt. And yet, I must admit, I am in awe of the pathologists I work with. Yes, admittedly some of them are pathologists because their people skills are totally lacking and will freely admit it. They are suited to look at the specimen - to see only the disease and not have to deal with people - and I get why. Having to diagnose a fatal condition in a small child…a mother of 4…nailing the coffin closed on yet another regular life - that is hard enough day in and day out. To have to put faces to the cases and tell the patients and their families day after day? THAT takes a special kind of person.
And things are changing. Slowly they, even at their level of expertise, are just another cog in the wheel. They are pushed for x numbers of cases per month to prove their worth. I mean, I am a “lowly tech”…what I do could be done by others -I’m not vain enough to think otherwise. Sure I’m good, and my skills are great and I benefit the ones I work for, but in the end, while I can see some things now after 10 years in pathology- like whether someone has a ER, PR or HER2 positive breast tumour, or some common GI conditions or bloodwork results, I cannot know, simply at a glance in the microscope, what organ the tissue is from. I cannot give my expert opinion on whether a tumor is benign…determine stage 1 from stage 4. I cannot recommend therapy. They can. And they do - often 16 hours a day 6-7 days a week. These are doctors who often have no lives because they are the only ones who can do this and cannot bring themselves to leave a patient wating…often, unless they are married to other doctors, their families and spouses simply cannot understand why they do it - why they would work like this and neglect them. They don't get why after nearly no sleep they’d get up and do it all over again…and sometimes their family life is sacrificed for the care of others. Their work becomes their life.
In all this they are becoming under appreciated for the amazing work they do. And it is a true shame…
I did a lot of thinking this weekend, after seeing and working with pathologists in a huge health and research centre work and hear them complain and thrive like any other job. I repeatedly thought of the cardiologist who attended my mother. How he took the time to speak candidly and compassionately with my mum, my dad and with us. How he made sure my mum was well cared for, and how her last days were full of as much comfort and compassion as he and the girls on the ward could offer. How the people I work for gave him the information he had to tell us.
I simply do not know how exhausted, under appreciated doctors get out of bed and do it day after day…I don’t think I am enough of a person to do that. To me, no amount of money is worth the sacrifice they put in…I do not have their inner spark and drive that fuels them exhausting week after exhausting week. My home life is more important to me than what I do...but I do not do what they do...
But I do know this – I am glad that I can call some of them my friends.
I've been so busy lately that it was nice to just unwind and "be" for a bit after the long days of work at the meetings were over. And yes, sap that I am, I really missed J. I like going exploring in new places with J...and finally having some time for me made it painfully obvious that he wasn't there with me. It was good to see his smiling face when I got home.
I'm back home to regular life again, but I'm hoping things will let off a bit and life will be slightly more normal this week. From all of this I am encouraged in my life that I'm doing good...not just for me but for others. I'm healthy, and for the first time in ages I feel like all this hard work might be worth it. I've realised again what matters and that in the end knowledge, love and good friends are at the top of what I need to be happy. Whether or not someone slipped something in my coffee in Toronto, I'll take it. :)
Happy Tuesday everybody.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
I love Roger's raspberry almond granola mixed with blueberry yogurt. I am eating it right now and it is everything I dreamed it could be.
Even better than a cupcake.
No. Be quiet. It really is.
I had a nice relaxing weekend at the lake and now am back in the thick of it. This weekend I have a meeting to go to where I will learn lots and present lots, and after my biostatistics midterm exam today (eep) it will be hard core data crunching outside regular work until it begins this weekend. I am hoping to not wig out and do well on my midterm and then after this weekend...I am hoping for a whole evening off after that.
Oh to dream :)
Anyone want to write my exam for me?
I'll pay you is delicious granola...
Thursday, October 07, 2010
Yesterday I was on campus for a total of 17.2 hours.
After going home at midnight and doing 2 and a half hours of homework, I am back here again at work after nearly 4 hours of wondrous sleep. One more hideously long day and tomorrow begins Thanksgiving weekend. Even though I will still have to study for a midterm and will have work to do there will be lots of sleep and turkey and being in the same room as my husband.
This is my carrot on a stick today my friends. To avoid insanity for another day...
Here's to keeping it together for 1 more day...
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
These are exciting and chatotic times - I may have to travel for a weekend for my MSc project in a few weeks (to learn new and exciting things) and, I must say, it is a pain in the butt to try and get everything together, find proper flights and try and book things and figure out who's paying for it (please not me please not me). I am not joking when I say that I really do not have time...and am amused that travelling grad students are lumped in with doctors who make a gajillion dollars...cuz we can totally afford the same accommodations...Man, how do people travel for a living? This is absurd.
I can book holidays no problem...that's *my* plans. Someone else's plans, while intellectually stimulating, are SO not the same thing...
Don't get me wrong - I'm quite excited to travel on my own for a weekend. I'm just having stupid details thrust upon me and I'm wigging out...I'm sure it will all turn out OK in the end...right?
How many senior researcher does it take to screw in a light bulb?
Five. One to change the light bulb, and four to argue about whether they’re taking the right approach to changing the bulb.
It's another 15 hour day here at Chez Laboratory. Gibbedy gibbedy gibbedy...
Here we go again...
Monday, October 04, 2010
I feel compelled to write to you about your latest film Ninja's Creed. Although the poster and the description alluded to an exciting B movie adventure involving ninjas, your movie did not have any credible ninjas in it. There was no skulking, sneaking, fighting or other ninja-like shenanigans.... even the rare and underwhelming assassinations by your so called "ninja" were alluded to off screen and done by a woman who was so obviously unmuscled I doubt she could have taken anyone unawares, let a lone assassinate them in a variety of splattery ways. Perhaps noone pointed it out to you at the time, but an Asian woman in tight pants with a knife does not make a ninja. Your film left us with poor dialog and mediocre acting...and no damn ninjas.
I am not a fussy a movie-goer. I am willing to sit through a perfectly average film (even a poor one) if there are well choreographed fighting scenes or cool effects - and *especially* if there are battling ninjas. Had there been even one reasonable ninja or good fight scene in your movie I would have sat through to the end of it, but I didn't make it past the half way mark. Even Mystery Science Theatre style mockery by myself and my husband wore thin by halfway through the film and we simply had to shut it off. It was terrible.
In the future, if you plan on making a movie entirely without ninjas please feel free to leave the term ninja from the title and description of the film so that suckers like myself will walk by it to find another one with ninjas: perhaps a label like "100% ninja free", or "Now with less ninjas" would suffice.
I wanted ninjas to fill my evening with relaxing entertainment. Please make an effort next time.
Friday, October 01, 2010
Perhaps I should just wear a bib and no pants whenever I have morning drinks or coffee at my desk. My lab coat *is* long enough to cover me up...hmmmm
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Funny...and sadly...too often true.
Oh - and if you were so inclined to do multiple regression analysis at 7AM to get an assignment completed before work (what?) - may I recommend the following song as a soundtrack?
It worked for me...
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep ....
Friday, September 24, 2010
Oh I am so glad it's friday. Yes I know I have to work on saturday too, but tonight I get to see my husband! Wohoo! We'll be home at the same time...and awake! Booyah.
And yes, when I opened my cup of Tim Horton's coffee after my workout this morning it tasted so fine that there were rainbows...in my head...and now they're there ALL THE TIME!
Exhaustion is fun :)
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Because I've been spending lots of time in the biosafety hood this week culturing cancer cells...in our affectionately nicknamed cabinet room ("the hood") I present to you a few tracks from a favourite remix album of mine I've been listening to while I'm in there. For some reason it keeps me going at the end of a long 14 hour day...
Have a good day Y'all...
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Here I am again at the lovely Chez Laboratory, in my home away from home. Yesterday was a 15 hour day and more of the same today...I have a stat assignment due and cell lines to culture and more MSc stuff. Busy...but somehow thriving on it. Something about throwing my wobbler and then making a game plan for what to do next has taken away some of the jibbelies and gotten me focused again. I have deadlines. I thrive with deadlines. J is equally busy with his job so we're cheering each other on and trying to get things done for a few moments home together...
My knee is still a bit twingy from the spin class abuse on monday so I gave it another day off and have just come in early to work to have a few minutes to sip coffee and check in on the interwebs and get my sh*t together before another long day.
In the end, eez gutt people. :)
Yesterday morning a sparrow flew in the bus and fluttered a bit and then settled in on the steering wheel of the bus, much to the joy of the driver. He was looking at me (it was 6:05 and I was the only one on the bus at first!), the road and the bird saying "look at the little guy!" and grinning madly. Eventually the bird flew near the back door and someone getting off managed to shoo it back outside...odd little things in my day keep happening to make me smile. I like to think the world is trying to keep me sane in what little ways it can :)
Monday, September 20, 2010
I worked hard this weekend got to visit old friends and unwind a bit. J was sweet and took me out to a great thai place and helped me unwobble. Yes, I'll have a whackload of work to do, but it is what it is. I'll just have to buckle down and do it.
I got up for another spin class of doom this morning. I arrived late and got one of the crappier bikes, which seemed to bug my knee a bit, so I'm going to make a point of getting there earlier and try to get a better bike. The last thing I want to do is screw up my knee...I think I'd go nutso if that happened. Tomorrow is swimming so that should take some of th edge off. It's stiff but not sore so I think it'll be OK. I'm trying glucosamine supplements to strengthen it...we shall see.
I've been listening a lot to the Gorillaz: D-sides album lately. I like it even more than the Demon Days album it is a B-side album for . I leave you with a track from it that has been stuck in my head all day - it's using some of the audio from another Gorillaz song I like called Dare and making a new equally great song out of it... Have a good day everybody.
Friday, September 17, 2010
I just received the results back from the external lab testing of my MSc project stuff...and they totally did NOT do what they were supposed to. They took my stuff and redid it as they thought would be best and not what they were told to...meaning I have way more work to do than originally and the results are NOT quite what they were supposed to be...so I'm struggling with trying to figure out a new way to analyze my results because I can't do what I was supposed to and it's all I get. I could have prepared them differently and gotten better results from them this way had I known what the f*ck they were going to do. What a great reward for all my hard work! As a bonus, since they're doing a favour for me to analyze them like this I'm not really in the position to complain... so I just have to sit here and imagine hitting the tech over the head with a baseball bat while I try and salvage as much useful data out of these different results as I can.
It's not very cathartic. I need a bigger imaginary bat. Maybe a tazer...
I appreciate people trying to take initiative but this is not their project to screw with...there is nothing like expectantly waiting 2 months for the results of a lot of hard work to find more work... I think can make it work for mostly what I want, but it isn't what I'd really needed and will extend what I have to do just that much longer.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Me? I met with my brother and a bunch of old people after supper to help them plan how to update their website.
I am thinking I did not get the better deal for the day :)
Oh well. There was cake...:)
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
I made the 6am bus and got to the University Physical Activity Center and checked it out...it's nice. I'm curious to check out the pool and their spin classes next week too. They even have a climbing wall...but I'm not interested in that. I had plenty of time to check things out and have a workout for 35 minutes on the treadmill (I tried my very best to just speedwalk but I did run a few 2 minutes spurts...couldn't help myself. Listening to Prodigy when I workout does that to me). I wore my heart rate monitor to make sure I got a good workout...it's a fun little toy. It tells me if my heart rate is in cardio range, for how long and how many calories burned. (I think I'll log it out of curiosity...and be my own new lab experiment!) Then, after some other muscle stuff an some stretches I still made it to work on time with a cup of coffee.
Now if it would only stop raining I'd be happy as a clam. :)
Thursday, September 09, 2010
Ah well, eventually I will get here in time to see the pool and perhaps even swim in it...we shall see. For now, it is another day...we shall see what's up :)
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
I have time to kill.
So here ya go...because I know you're all dying to know the random wibbles of my daily life...
Current clothes: Jeans. Orange polo shirt and socks.
Current mood: Guilty. I brought an adaptor to work this AM (thought it was my brothers cell phone adaptor he said he’d left at the lake and I’m meeting him for supper) and then my husband spent an hour at home this morning looking for it (because it was *not* in fact my brother’s but part of my husband’s light board…which he needs today for work...heh) and so he was stressed out for no reason and quite late for work. AND has to come to my work to get it. Fucksticks.
Current music: just listened to Blur, Think Tank.
Current annoyance: Hearing people complain about being busy as they sit there doing nothing while I run around like an idiot trying to keep my life on track. I do a zillion things cuz I have to and don’t whine about it and then they’re done…of course maybe they just did that and now that they’re *done* they feel free to bitch about them. Hmm…
Current thing: trying to fit exercise in my already full days
Current desktop picture: A woman playing ukulele on the moon
Current book: I just finished Good Omens by Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman -loved it.
Current song in head: Hey Mr. Bassman…sung by Scooter and the band from the Muppet Show. Don’t ask…I don't know how it got there either.
Current DVD in player: Currently rewatching Torchwood season 1.
Current refreshment: Thinking about running to get some lemonade.
Current worry: Just had random wiring issues with my furnace fixed and it’s supposed to be OK now…but now wonder what else in my house can just randomly arc or combust…
Current thought: Wish I’d just left that adaptor at home this morning, or mentioned it in passing to J before I left. Funny how a little act of what you think is helpfulness can totally bugger up someone’s day. I *meant* well…
Here's hoping I manage the rest of the day better :)
Tuesday, September 07, 2010
Friday, September 03, 2010
It was just a minor repair to replace a wire that had gotten old and cracked and broken...so it arced the side of the furnace instead of being one piece and starting the fan motor like it should have. According to the guy I got to fix it, it does look like the wiring in the furnace is old and getting brittle so we need to look into replacing either it or the furnace in the next 1-2 years to be safe. He left us with some options to think about...to replace all the internal electrical in the furnace (which is about 40 years old and really inefficient) would cost about 700-1000...and a whole new furnace would cost ~3500. So...it will take some thinking and planning...that's a lot of lettuce.
Either way I'm not comfortable with leaving old wiring in there long term, because, honestly this could just happen again, eventually. He said the wires in there looked OK as of now, but you never know...he recommended not to leave it longer than 2 years, just for safety. I know I don't want to worry about that sort of thing happening again when we're not home...it should just blow the breaker. This arc actually made a little hole in the side of the furnace box (spooky) We were lucky this time and should be responsible and look into fixing it properly.
Thankfully this repair guy is one who was honest with us and he helped us fix our furnace motor in the middle of the night mid winter and was helpful and honest when everyone else tried to screw us over or lie to us about cost. I called him to install our gas stove too. He's' a good local guy who doesn't BS, so I trust him. He can put in new furnaces too, so I'm going to get him to quote us and see what our options are. By spring we can look at what to do. I like supporting local nice honest people.
It's nice to know it's fixed though. Man, electrical things always creep me right out...
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Now, after a week of this new shampoo, I am disturbed to find that despite my best efforts I am starting to have hippie hair. And no, I don't like it. Don't get me wrong I'm all over the eco friendly non-chemical shampoo shtick, but the deep conditioning fruity whatsits have left my hair rather dull and a sort of stringy and a bit of...well, almost greasy looking...you know...like hippy hair.
I don't like it.
No sir...so this weekend I'm getting my old regular fruity shampoo.
Hopefully noone will have noticed other than me...
Monday, August 30, 2010
So saturday I attacked the basement, which was still in utter disarray from after the "great shitstorm of 2010". It is now organised and tidy, with all the laundry sorted and caught up on. Then there was the main level...it ain't perfect, but now it looks as though people live there and I don't want to go for a walk to escape the clutter. The table top can be seen and the kitchen and living room look rather nice if I do say so.Sunday was spent going through our bedroom and decluttering, putting away all the backlog of laundry, defurring the house and making up the bed with lovely smelling clean sheets. It's nice coming home to a home that relaxes you instead of making you think of all the things you need to do :)
J took me out for Burmese food to my favourite local place on saturday night and we went for nice long walks outside both evenings. It's been rather special having him all to myself over the holidays and it was nice to spend some relaxing time together. I couild tell I was relaxing as I made some chicken parmesan and cheese onion bread and stuffed peppers for supper last night as well...cooking always relaxes me. In the end I feel quite caught up. I still have a sniffle and the odd cough, but I'm happy to report that I believe I will survive the plague after all :)
The only downside to the last few days is when we went to turn on the air conditioning a few days ago there were some zapping arcing noises and the lights flickered. So, naturally we shut it off straight away and ran to the basement where we noticed a bit of smoke in the basement by the furnace fan, but nothing permanent that we could see. We pulled the cover off the furnace and poked around and other than some dust bunnies (ahem) we couldn't see anything amiss. We're too scared to turn it back on until we've had it looked at so I'm going to hopefully book someone to come look at it soon. Of course this week it is chilly and rainy and we could really do with putting the heat on, but we'll just have to suck it up and put on fuzzy socks and a sweater until we have it looked at, as if it is the furnace fan that's the issue we can't run the heat until it's fixed. I'm hoping it's something minor like a wire or something and not the entire furnace fan...because that could mean essentially a whole new furnace. And yes we've thought of replacing it as it's old and completely energy wasting, but we are hoping on doing it on our terms and budget. But, we shall see. No use getting worked up about it until it's been looked at is there?
For now I'm content to be living in a sane house. I have 1 week of sanity before classes start and I hope to make the most of it...
Friday, August 27, 2010
Soooo....essentually from september until mid december I will be here for an extra 2 or 3 hours per day, plus a good chunk of saturday.
I need a beer...make that 2...
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Unfortunately for me it's turned into a full out headcold as of monday night and even tho I stayed home yesterday to sleep all day I still feel bleh. So I'm in to do what's needed at work and then I'm off home for more sleep and tea. I can tell I'm tired and overmedicated still because I noticed that I just sent out a memo discussing issues that have been "pooping" up on the image server...yeah, thanks spell check. Oh well...someone will get a bit of a giggle at my expense...I'm too stuffed up and medicated up to mind much at the moment...and seeing as the issues to deal with are rather sh*tty, well it's somewhat appropriate.
Yeah. That's it.
Talk amongst yourselves...
Monday, August 23, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Strangely enough, having just flown home late last night from our glorious holiday over the ocean, visiting the wonderful grapecat in her roundel, as well as Paris, Canterbury, Dover and London, I have been struck with the utter paranoia of the United States of America, adding a bit of a sour note to the end of an otherwise deliriously wonderful trip. Not really considering it, we booked our flights with Delta (bleh) which flew direct from home through Minneapolis international airport on the way to and back from the Heathrow airport in the UK. Even though we were in the US only long enough to buy a bit of coffee or a pint and munchables on our way through and back, we had to disembark, get scanned, get our luggage, go through customs (where they can open our luggage and look through it for "our safety" even though we are not actually staying there), get scanned again, put our luggage on for the connecting flight (where they can randomly rifle through your luggage again for whatever reason they feel like)...before we could possibly get scanned *again* and then wander around an airport a bit and reboard to get on with our trip. On our way back I took of my boots 3 times. 3 bloody times.
Thankfully we dressed up a bit for our flights and were our most politely unoffensive white little selves and were relatively unaccosted. Anyone who appeared shaggy or mistrusting, or sadly, of middle eastern descent, seemed to get their fingerprints or retinas scanned or have a full body inspection experience...I wouldn't want to have to get into those new full body scanners....I can't be convinced they're safe.
Heathrow airport where they have actually *had* bombings...*they*were not this paranoid, and just did what was needed without feeling so terribly opressive. Paris? Ditto. Canada? Downright polite and helpful, I must smugly report.
Perhaps I was just tired and tetchy as it was about 3 AM UK time when we passed thru customs towards a few hour wait before we could fly on home, but I must say....the US has a wee bit too much paranoia on it's hands. Like it's feeding on itself...I don't think I'll travel through the US again if I can help it. Just a bit too creepy.
Oh Canada, you make me love you more and more whenever I go away :)
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
It's been busy here doing a lot of MSc work, but we were able to get away and visit my Dad for a few days on the long weekend and do a bit of fishing and relaxing. It was good to see him and he appreciated the visit...he's doing much better, and I'm glad to know he's OK.
Nose to the grindstone, yes sir. Just thought I'd stop in to let you all know I'm doing great.
Hope you all are too :)
Friday, July 30, 2010
Part of what I like in my job is that because I work in a laboratory with all manner of things that may stain me or infect me, I can wear very casual things to work. Sure, no open toe shoes or shorts or even mid calf hobbit pants or skirts, but I can wear jeans and t-shirts, only having to snazz up a bit for the odd departmental meeting where I'm forced to speak in front of the doctors. Usually I'm covered in a lab coat, and if I wear nicer things they inevitably get ruined, so I don't make a habit of it. For shoes I wear comfy expensive running shoes, my one concession, because I stand all day and work in 4 labs in 2 different buildings so I do a lot of stairs and my feet thank me for it. Heels and uncomfortable shoes would be agony. As a result, after having lost weight and not really replaced my clothes afterwards, I don't have many nice things. I tend to spend $$ on entertainment, food or music before me. And usually I'm OK with it.
I only lament this rarely when I want to look more girly or dressy. It doesn't happen often, but I have occasional fits of girlishness (I'm in the midst of one right now) where I want to look pretty and take the time to look very nice...and much to my annoyance I find that other than a few outfits suitable for say a church service or wedding, I've got NOTHING to wear. I kid you not- I'm not being melodramatic female here - my husband has more shoes and nice clothes for his job than I do. Lots more. He's the opposite - when we go camping he doesn't really have anything to dress *down* in and often will wear khakis and a nice shirt camping, while I'm in shorts or a t-shirt. He doesn't mind though, as I don't think he'd wear a pear of jeans or sandals now unless I paid him - he was raised british and in the end he just likes dressing that way. It makes him feel more confident. I don't think he's worn jeans since we dated. I like it too...he always looks nice :). And comparatively, I end up looking a bit scruffy on his arm.
In an attempt to remedy my grubbiness, I'm trying to put together nicer things and it's been a challenge. I've started feeling as though I'm not being taken seriously because of how I look at work, and I think if I put a bit more effort into things, over the next few months I could really evolve here from a slob into a rather swanky goddess of charm. I'll never be posh or super high style (you can't wash out the tomboy that easily), but I am in the mood to get in touch with my feminine side and see what comes up. I think what brought this on is our upcoming anniversary. In preparation for our trip, I'd like to actually dress a bit up and not wander in running shoes and ratty jeans.
I've found a nice pear of Clarks Unstructured mary jane style black walking shoes which fit like a glove and are incredibly comfortable...I don't even have to break them in and they look better than a pair of white and pink trainers. I've also picked up a nice sundress to wear on holiday (here's hoping for some sun!), and found a few things in the closet that are a step up from slightly too big t-shirts and old jeans. I do have a few new pairs of jeans that fit and are remotely in style (just have to get around to hemming them), and I think, as long as the weather isn't too warm, I may not look completely scruffy. I'm not going too crazy or girly here, here...just trying to rise above what's become the norm around here. I feel more confident at work this way.
We shall see. Tomorrow this may be all out the window.
But for now, I've got AWESOME shoes :)
Life is wierd ya know. It seems a lot of things have been hitting me hard lately. Been distant from people, including my partner who is dea...
May the blessing of light be on you— light without and light within. May the blessed sunlight shine on you and warm your heart till it glows...
Last night was nice. J was feeling a bit better and it was the final night of the Enchanted Forest light display at the forestry farm here ...