Friday, August 29, 2008


Just found out Goldfrapp will be in Vancouver mid September, playing at the ever so classy Commodore Ballroom.

Wish I could go...she's on my list of people to see before I shuffle off this coil.
Not only is it a fabulous place to see a show, it's Goldfrapp...and it's Vancouver.

I'm on edge at the moment. Life is still crummy, but I've got the internet...and I found the above lovely piece of art on Deviant Art, by Nasayer. I'm gonna stare at the pretty picture for a while.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Jeebers already

Oh Crap-Natalee Dee

Everything I have done in the lab today has failed spectacularly.
Some of the samples cannot be replaced.
I may be able to fix them, but chances are, I'll have to repeat some of them and the other...well..too bad so sad.
Makes you feel rather useless it does.
I think I should take a few days off...I'm beginning to think I'm screwing up on purpose.
Probably not...some lab work just doesn't work.
But for *all* isn't working right now. Maybe I should stop before I screw up something else...


It's all in the details

Why oh why do things get more complicated?
And why, no matter how I try to do the right thing...?
2 steps forward 2 steps back.

I'm grateful for my friends right now.
I draw strength from them...cuz I need it.

Monday, August 25, 2008


I'm trying to respect our privacy while using this blog for what it is - my sounding board and place to vent anonymously to the world. It is hard.
So, I will be a bit vague from now on, out of respect. I am trying to find a middle ground between venting and letting out too much. It's not just me that is in this...
Right now I feel that in getting the help I need I've had to let some people know details...and now they know and can't "unknow" them...and so I've hurt those I love while trying to help them. If you know me...please respect those details. OK? This is my life here.
Still, I felt like I learned a great deal this weekend from my Dad and from getitng lost in my own head...sitting on the dock watching the sun fade and each star come out one by one until it was awash with stars. Shooting stars and satellites helped me focus...but it still isn't enough. I'm not able to fix things for anyone but me.
I can't win either way.
I just have to hope that at the end of it all, what is to be will be...
I've figured out what I want "it" to be. But it's not up to me...

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Making my Getaway

I'm going here.
I need to crack my head open and have a look-see in there and have a good long think.
And some of my Mum's cocoa...

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


This is still, without a doubt, the wierdest ad I have ever seen.
(I will admit that I now use Kikkoman sauces...what? They're good.)

Monday, August 18, 2008

Through appliance of science, we've got that ring of confidence

...And I have no compass
And I have no map
And I have no reasons, no reasons to get back

And I have no religion
And I don't know what's what
And I don't know the limit, the limit of what we've got

Don't worry baby, it'll be alright
You got the right shoes to get you through the night
It's cold outside, but brightly lit
Skip the subway - Let's go to the overground
Get your head out of the mud baby
Put flowers in the mud baby

No particular place names
No particular song
I've been hiding
What am I hiding from?

Don't worry baby, it's gonna be alright
Uncertainty can be a guiding light
I hear voices, ridiculous voices out in the slipstream
Let's go, let's go overground
Take your head out of the mud baby

She's gonna dream of the world she wants to live in
She's gonna dream out loud

~U2, Zooropa

Sunday, August 17, 2008

My cat is jealous

I'm sitting in bed in my PJs checking the interweb...killing time. Occupying my brain.
It is rather all kinds of posh to be able to do this, but I don't want to make a habit of's like eating chips in bed. You don't want to do it too often. It is crumb free tho.
My purring cat simply does not get it.
He cannot fiigure out why my hands are all over this metal scentless thing and not petting him - oh the outrage!
I must go love my cat...and find something to do on sunny sunday.

No plans make for a crazy mind at the moment...wish I didn't have to think about things.
Think I'll go hug the cat for a while and try and figure out what to do...

Friday, August 15, 2008

even better.

Just keeping my brain busy...

A song for a friday

He's my hero...

How I wish I'd spoken up

Reign of love
I can’t let go
To the sea I offer this heavy load

Locusts will lift me up
I’m just a prisoner in a reign of love

Locusts will let us stop
I wish I’d spoken to the reign of love

By the church, we’re waiting
My knees go praying
How I wish I’d spoken up
Or we’d be carried in the reign of love

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Perogy Party

So it's the night before I head off for 10 days to dance in the woods...
I'm baking up a storm and making sure our gear is all here. 

I'm also making the best damn perogies I've ever eaten.
My buddy Magnus has had it in his head for a while to make some gourmet perogies...he wanted to use ground steak, basil and drunken goat chees, and make another with marscapone and a few other cheeses and roasted garlic. Not to be left out I wondered what capicolla mixed with potato, onion, cheddar and roast garlic would taste like.
Today, instead of packing for my holidays, we finally got round to making them.

In the words of Homer: "heaghhhhhhhhh!"

They were delectable. The ones with steak in really were the best of the 3, but they were all delicious. I found a recipe in the interweb for someone's grandma's polish perogy dough recipe and we used that.

Perogy dough:
4 1/2 c flour
2 t salt
2 T melted butter
2 c fat free sour cream
2 eggs
1 egg yolk
2 t oil

You mix the dough together well and then let it sit covered for 20 minutes. Then you roll it out as thin as  you can on a floured surface, a minimum of  1/8 inch thick. Use a glass to cut out the circles and put about 1 t of whatever filling you like in them and wet them a bit and pinch hem shut, setting them on a floured surface. Apparently you can then freeze them, but we just cooked them all...and then ate them. Considering that it made nearly 5 dozen perogies that officially makes us gluttons I believe. We made the fillings before hand - all the meat was cooked and all the spices and things all mixed together and ready to go.
To cook the perogies you just boil water and drop them in in small groups, about a dozen at a time and cook until they've floated to the top and stayed there about 1 minute more.

I don't usually freak out too much over perogies... But I have to say, these were the best perogies I have ever had. It was a few hours of work, but so very worth it.

And of course...I forgot to take pictures...sorry.

Now I just have to bake bout 5 dozen cookies and I can go to bed :)
If I forget to pop by again, have a great week.
I'm off to monkey dance in the mountains...

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